The past I had, I cannot change.
The past I had, no more remains.
It brought me to this time and place.
It helped me see my Savior’s face.
Can you take a few minutes and really think about these few lines? I mean really think about it. Every person alive has a past. Some can be proud of their accomplishments, but most of us look back and see our mistakes, the blunders, and the paralyzing results of the many sins we committed. If we look back through our eyes, most of us remember our pain and shame.
Sometimes there are those who long to bring those feelings back into play in this present moment. It might be the enemy throwing our past in our face, trying to trip us up. We know the enemy does it to prevent us from realizing exactly who we are in the Lord. On the other hand, it might be members of our own family or even a church member. Some will do it out of anger or even un-forgiveness. Others attack our past mistakes out of jealousy. They could resent our calling or position in the body of Christ.
These few lines at the beginning came from the Lord one night as I was struggling with my past. I knew the Lord had forgiven me, but I could not let go of the past. How could anyone love me and especially the Lord? My sins seemed higher than highest mountain in the world. They seemed darker than the darkest night. Yet, the Lord kept ministering that His forgiveness had no boundaries. His love was wider, deeper, and higher than anything I could ever imagine. As I had repented, He had cast my sin far away. In fact, He threw it as far as the east is from the west.
Changing our past is impossible. There is no way to go back in time and re-do or alter a single second or act. Your past is unchangeable. However, praise His name, His forgiveness can overcome all of it. As we come to the Lord seeking forgiveness, as we cry out in our pain and agony, He opens His arms and welcomes us into His family, by the blood of the Lamb. Added to that, His forgiveness is unending, and He never brings our past up to bring us back down. He convicts, but He never condemns. It is through our past that we saw our need for a Savior and began seeking His face. Our past brings us to that place of salvation.
However, the marvelous thing He revealed over the years is that no matter what our failures are, He is more than able to bring glory to His name even in the worse of our failures. Yes! It seems impossible but it is through our experiences and failures that we are able to minister to others sharing with them how the Lord worked in our life. By allowing others to see what the Lord has accomplished in our life, we may plant a seed of hope in them. Others will see the changes in our life and want to walk through that same door to victory.
I have seen the Lord do this numerous times, not only in my life but also in the life of others. To know that the Lord can take the worse times of my life and redeem them for good is a miracle to me. As bad as your past may be, when you allow the Lord to turn the table on what the enemy wanted to use to bring you down , He brings glory to His name. Let the cry of your heart be “Lord, use me, use my past for Your Glory, for Your kingdom. Amen.”